Confidence? Confidence... Confidence!

I would have been lying if I started this post with words ''I don't like to give a speech''. Or if I have said that I am never nervous before, during and after it.

Actually I love talking. If you ask anyone who knows me about some facts connected to me - a half of these people will definately say that I never keep silence. That's true, I can talk a lot, about everything and I find it entertaining, But there is a BIG problem so far - I can talk a lot, I can tell you so much - and say nothing at all. The thing is that I lack informative parts in my speech. Thank Gods, I understand this and I am trying to change this already.

It's not hard to me to give a speech, but it's really hard to make myself prepared to it. It always goes the same way:
- I have a task to do
- I tell myself: "I'll start preparing today"
- I'm in a rush of preparation behind the scenes

All I understand for now is that confidence isn't built up with only talking and making public interested in your speech (what is not less important of course) but also in a good preparation, having a plan if not on the paper but in your head at least.
That's where I need to improve my confidence level at first. I must fill my head with info before (!) I start the speech, not during it. That's what for my head is given to me, right?

I'll start preparing today. Probably.